I think I'll try it another way...
Five damn days are gone till it's gone and I feel like
murdered, it feels like someone's kicking you right between the balls (for the
ladys, very painful!!!)
So here is another way to try to forget 'bout all we had...
everytime I hear a song, I think of her I'll write here about it and push it to
the connected music... I think when all the songs are listed, the pain is over
and all the memories are just a journal entry here... I hope that it'll work!
I hope for helping feedback too... the question is, how can
I delete the memories my best friend left in me after leavin'?
Böhse Onkelz - Erinnerungen
It's a song that has really nothing to do with this
friendship but the lyrics remember me to how it was... it's a german song, I try
to translate the line which remembers her in my mind... "I like to
remember the times, the times you'll never forget but I have to live my life,
go on my own way, goodbye you good time, we'll meet again!" It hurts, but
this is it... I'll have to live my life alone, but never forget the good times!
Before finishing, the journal seems to kill itself... the grave will be closed without a corpse... think the friendship is undead or something like that! But I won't delete it...
Restart
I think this will be another try to list all the songs
reminding me of her... but I think I'll never complete it... cause friendship
is never ending, still alive after dying and dying again!
Judith Lefeber - I Will Follow You
Dunno why but tears come in my eyes... It's very emotional
and reminds me of her!
Killswitch Engage - When Darkness Falls
This is one of the tracks often played in the main hall of
the x... it is a soft reminder in a hard track but we never danced to, did we?
Blumfeld - Ein Lied von zwei Menschen
It's the first time I've heard... it tells a story 'bout
love but it seems to be written 'bout us!
Renamed...
Today(20 August 2006) I think about other people hearing
some music and bout things of my past so the old name "Funeral of a
fabulous friendship / Undead embracement" now will be the collection of
song bound memories, everytime a song will be scrobbled, which I identify as a
reminding song it will be list here with the event and sometimes my thougts
too...
Scooter - Break It Up
It reminds me to my former best friend... we were stranded
in Bielefeld Brake, last train has just left the station and it was damn cold
for a day in July... it was his 18th birthday, our only baggage were two cans
of beer and the clothes we had on our bodys! Our plan to go to disco to party
his birthday failed because the 10 cans of beer before made us forget that we
had had to change trains in Herford... well so we sat there and I get this song
in my mind whenever there was silence, in now time it reminds me to this day, I
love it... and will always remember this day!
Counting Crows - Colorblind
Everytime my best friend was in a very special mood, often
to go down and being depressive this song was on her media player... dunno if
she noticed that, but often it was!
James Blunt - You're Beautiful
This was one of the songs, played on the radio every day and
always remembering her face, her eyes and all she does, how she walked, how she
laughed... she's brautiful... she liked that song
Illuminate - Abschied
I think this song's 'bout her... and every word is like
death to my heart again again and again and again... it fits to this day
(August 26th), it's the third chapter of her, taking our friendship to the
graveyard...
Deftones - Simple Man
This song reminds me to the idea to cover the version of the Deftones with A Glorious Mess but it never became true because
the end of the band came first... this song reminds me to another thing, the
first night I was drunken, this song was the song that was played on the radio
on my way home...
Nina Hagen - Du hast den Farbfilm vergessen
This song is awesome, whenever I hear it, have to think of
the great movie "Sonnenallee" which describes in a comedy how life was in the former DDR... I like this movie because of its great musical
taste! This song is a catchy tune to me every time I hear it, I have to think
of it, the whole day!
Subway To Sally - Schneekönigin
Charade on the webcam, she shows me some kind of freaky
signs to find out that I'm searching for this song, in the following time this
became a running gag between us and every time this song was played, I think of
these days, and her unforgettable performance on the webcam.
Letzte Instanz - Ohne dich
This song describes my current feelings, it's about someone
who lost somebody and sings about his life, that it really sucks without him but
it will go on, ever and ever... it will go on, but without her, this is truly
one of my favourite songs of the time we were together, dunno why but in this
time this song made me happy because of its melody and arrangement, today it's
fulfilled with tears for me
Böhse Onkelz - Viva Los Tioz
"Viva los tioz" was the first song of my later and
still favourite band, I've heard... I think it was five or six years ago, this
song was played on a party of a friend... I loved it and from this moment I was
"onklifiziert"
Sonata Arctica - The End of the Chapter
3 weeks ago in the night I was out to smoke some cigarettes,
to get a clear head but it don't work really... When I was home again this song
was on my MP3-Player and I loved it, crying bitter tears, knowing it's over,
knowing the light in my night is gone, the hope will leave me and all I was
fighting for is nothing more than the dust, building the fog outside, which
burrows all the memories and all there ever was...
Welle: Erdball - 1000 weiße Lilien
About the death and reanimating the love of his live it's like a Frankenstein song of one of the most impressive live bands I saw and will see again, when in town. I heard it first on VIVA II years ago, it's kind of bitpop in a special dark way, I love.
Sonata Arctica - Tallulah
This song full of emotional power will be the song
which always remembers my (I'm not allowed to call her "friend", but
I think friend means acquaintance too so, I'll call her so...) first contact
with power metal and the first time I visited her. Both of these things
enriched my life, thanks... I'm writing bout pumuckl178. I'm proud and glad to
know her. She's one of the last social contacts, which are left after my period
of social isolation in consequence of losing myself by searching for something
never was meant to be mine!
Saltatio Mortis - Der Ruf
It reminds me to the day my best friend was here for the
last time, I tell her that I was kind of depressed and she came to console
me... Before she was here I've heard this song about ten times
Reamonn - Josephine
I don't know... to what it reminds me but it's combined with
an emotional feeling, I think it was one of my 3-day girlfriends which I
remember, but dunno, whatever it is a great song!
Matthias Reim - Träumer
Dreamer, this song says all bout why it had to end former or
later, in the song there's a line: "I know to love me is like a horrortrip
for you, but I'm just a dreamer nothing more" (in german it rhymes on this
point) It's very emotional and there's a great guitar solo in it, I loved this
song from the first moment on, it'll always remember her (like so many songs
do), damn!
The Blues Brothers - Ghost riders in the sky
My 15th birthday I celebrate with two friends in the cinema,
cause we were big fans of the first Blues Brothers Movie we decided to look the
Version of 2000... it was a great experience, I think the first real music
movie I've seen in cinema, the sound was more than average and because it was
my birthday all the drinks we get were free... today something like that is
unbelievable I think...
Welle: Erdball - Deine Augen
Describing a beautiful and unique women with the brightest
eyes in the world and their might to make the world go round it is the
description of my best friend and the women of my dreams and the tears came
back another time, when I hear it. But I love this song!
Puddle of Mudd - She Hates Me
I remember giving Come Clean to her years ago, because she
wished for it, it has been the time we were together for the first time, when
we are young, we didn't know how missing feels, but I missed her when she had no
time... it was really a big thing we had. Half a year ago she showed me, that
she still got this CD and I really was happy 'bout the fact, she reminded the
past as I did, but today I don't know if she remembers who I am.
Nargaroth - Black Metal ist Krieg
purpurpuppe seems to be the light in darkness when all the
lights else are gone out... 5 minutes of headbanging action made this song
remembering her for a long long time, thank you for writing with me, it's so
helpful (heißt das so, das Englisch is wirklich scheisse im Moment) that you're
there.
By the way your nick has got only 3 Letters P(5), U(3),
R(2) and an E, this is really PURE *g*
2 Unlimited - No Limit
We were young and we have a big "D.I.S.C.O."
evening in hostel in "Rödinghausen" called
"Berghütte (Mountain-Barrack)" It was the last evening of our big class trip in the 4th class and the evening I fell in love with a wonderful
blond haired angel... later I called her my twin-sister cause we're born on the
same day and never get together. Today she's ignoring me, when she sees me. By
the way this evening was celebrated by the motto of this song, and it was the
first real party I celebrated... it ended with a big boom from a blast speaker
;-)
Blümchen - Ich vermisse Dich
First time I hear this song, and first time the words
somebody said to me coming right back in my ears, and tears come right back in
my eyes... crazy how Jasmin Wagner sang 'bout what I'm feeling, the name is
crazy isn't it.… they might know me personal would understand why it's quite
crazy
Rammstein - Mann gegen Mann
Dancefloor hit and must-dance-to song of our X-time...
always gone crazy at the end of this song, she was just greatful rockin' to
this song!
Green Day - Give Me Novocaine
This song reminds me to bad and good times, this song I
loved, missing her and thinking bout her, it's awesome how I feel hearing this
song... it like the room is filled up with her arome!
Blue - U Make Me Wanna
Always remember the days by the sea, and the girl I liked at
this time, this song reminds her to me, I think every morning driving to school
by bus, this song was on the radio, and I was next to her taking the best seat
in bus... her neighbour seat. We had a big time in friendship, there was never
more, but she was one of the nice memories of the past, always remembering
drinking' in the midday sun, not going to the beach... hearing our formula 1
favourites crashing in the first round and getting burned in the face... what a
damn good holiday in August 2003!
Semisonic - Closing Time
I'll now close this chapter forever coz there's nothing more
to say, every time I do, I feel bad after I did thiz so the last words should
be: "Rest In Piece Darling"
What a foolish game I played...
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